…and continues…

I don’t know about eloquence, but I’ll give it a shot…

After about three weeks or so of digging out this or that old tax form, lining up our references, and taking general inventory of our lives, we are proud to announce that our formal application is now complete. This morning, Dante and I took a drive out to Bethany to personally deliver it (with a couple of our required reading books) to the office. What a sense of accomplishment!

So, now, we wait (this whole process is a lot of “hurry up and wait” from the sounds of things). Wait to hear that our application has been accepted. Wait for the next batch of forms to be mailed to us to fill out even more questions (hope they don’t take as long as the application). And wait for those of you who were gracious enough to agree to be our references to receive your forms and get them sent back in for us. And then we wait some more. And so it goes.

And in the waiting, I’m thanking God for the beautiful son I have and for my wonderful husband. I’m enjoying the moments I have to spend with them — our last chance to be the three Burkholders. As we anticipate the next child in our family, I am realizing that (once again) our life is going to change irrevocably. And I thank God for this blessing that we have.


…And so, it begins!

Well, this is it. The point of no return. On this day we have finally, at long last, turned in our formal application to become adoptive parents!

Now? We wait.

And wait.

Honestly, I’m not completely certain what happens at this point. Except for the waiting. I know that’s gonna be a major part of our lives for the foreseeable future. But beyond that, I’m really not sure. I do know that we’re in for an interesting time. 🙂

Really not feeling very talkative at this point (long day). Nean’s got a few more details, so I think I’ll let her exercise some eloquence of her own.


Mind Boggling

I realize this post is a bit late. We had our all-day adoption class through Bethany this past Monday. Talk about information overload! We heard everything relating to the birth-parents’ viewpoint, the legal process of adoption, home study and profile information, proper language relating to adoption, and even baby-care. I’m sure I left something out, so forgive me. Even five days later, my mind is still processing everything.

I don’t know that I heard anything that I hadn’t heard before. Since my mom and dad have been foster parents off and on for most of my life and since I have adopted siblings and cousins, I’m pretty familiar with all the legal stuff (like waiting for parental rights to be terminated and court dates and all that). Having Dante means we’ve already learned all the baby care stuff. I’ve even known birth-parents who have put their child up for adoption and friends that have recently adopted (or are in the process themselves). But the class was really good to review all that.

What I most got out of the class? I got a greater compassion and sympathy for birth-parents. Having to allow another couple (that you’ve chosen solely based on pictures and paperwork that they’ve chosen to let you see) raise your baby — for ANY reason — has to be one of the most difficult decisions in the world. I pray that our angels will have the strength to trust us when the time comes. And I think I’m more willing to consider an open adoption arrangement (more on that down the road).

We also greatly enjoyed having lunch with another couple from our class. We’d actually met them before; they are the sister and brother-in-law of our friend Carol who works at Bethany. But it was great to talk and realize how much we have in common. Having another couple to walk through this journey with will be helpful!

Sitting in the class and looking around the circle reminded us a bit of our childbirth classes when I was pregnant with Dante. The reality that our lives are about to change forever finally sets in and suddenly the family won’t look quite the same as it did before. I feel a greater need to spend time with our family (the three of us) and enjoy every minute. I think I am even more thankful that God has blessed us as He did with Dante and given us the ability to care for him and love him.
What’s next for us? A lot of waiting! Next steps are the formal application (which we hope to get in before Christmas) and then the home study, creating a profile to show to birth-parents (kind of a family scrapbook), and then lots of waiting. In that sense it’s quite similar to pregnancy I suppose… Lots of preparation, followed by a lot of waiting. We’ll keep you posted.

We got to see a photo of the little boy, Marc (now Ashton), whose story spurred us into action this fall. He’s been adopted by a wonderful family (for those who’ve been asking about him). We are praising God for that and praying for the child who is meant to be part of our family.

The day ended with a panel of two couples who have adopted and a woman who does cradle-care foster parenting for Bethany. We heard two very opposite extremes of how adoption goes. Both had very beautiful little girls, but one of the experiences was very quick (less than 6 months from the time they turned in application until the finalization of the adoption) and the other was long, drawn-out and very painful. The second mother was threatened by the possible birth-father at the hospital and nearly lost their little girl after bonding with her. This mother has become very active among her local politicians in an attempt to speed the adoption process for the benefit of the children. Her comment to one politician has stuck with me and I issue it as a challenge to each of you who have children: “When you kiss your children good night and tuck them into bed tonight, thank God that no one can come and take them away from you.”

We hope and pray that our process is more like the first family’s experience, quick and painless. We covet your love and prayers as we walk through this next year. Please pray for us and our future child, but also for the birth-parents of that child. And enjoy your family today; they are your gift from God.


Adoption 101

I think it’s my turn to weigh in here–particularly with some more information on the adoption. For some of you reading this, our adoption news seems sudden and perhaps a bit impulsive. So let me explain a bit. Jeff and I both have adoption in our families and, therefore, adoption always seemed natural to us. We have discussed this option since before we were even married, and have looked into it at different times in our married life with varied levels of seriousness. Up until this point, however, there always seemed to be a sense of, “Now is not the right time.”

God has blessed us in so many ways. We have an incredible network of supportive family and friends and a nice home. We also have a beautiful son, Dante, who is a source of endless delight! With so many children out there in need of good homes, we feel that we have so much to offer — but also so much to gain from the child that God chooses to bless us with. While we may or may not be finished having birth-children of our own, we really feel that now is the time to pursue adoption more seriously.

We appreciate your prayer and support in this process. We have chosen to work with Bethany Christian Services, particularly with the Domestic Adoption program (which means we are looking at receiving an infant born here in the states). We will begin with a full-day class in December followed by a “home study” (which we’ll fill you in on as we have more details) and then it could take a year or more until a child actually comes to live in our home.

Because adoption costs literally thousands of dollars (between court fees, medical expenses, and counseling support for those involved), we will be setting up an account designated for our “adoption fund”. We’re not asking you to contribute unless you want to, but we wanted to let you know that we would find any donations to this fund to be a great gift to our family!

Please feel free to ask any questions you may have along the way. We will answer them the best we can. I’m sure we’ll have plenty of our own questions along the way too!